My Reelity

Today’s my first day on the set, and filming had already been well underway. I found out that our first scene in the movie is also gonna be the opening scene of the movie.

You know what that means folks. You don’t need to wait forever to catch me in the movie! *beam* Just, errm, don’t be late. 😛

In between takes and waiting for them to set up the shot, Fish and I chatted. Yes, Fish was the one (nahbeh) who prised the role away from me, and I realised that this wasn’t the only role he had prised from me (nabeh!); there were seriously a couple of others more(nahbeh! nahbeh!! nabeh!!!)!! I mean like, What The Fish?! 😛 Note to self : Next time go audition see Fish around, just seng ki lai (don’t bother).

That aside, I was surprised to find that his path and mine was quite similar and he’s also a “working” actor. What’s more astonishing is that he’s married and has a four year old daughter! And in his own words, he added, “Yeah, I get by. Got enough money to buy diapers and milk powder”.

It was quite a revelation, because I’d never thought I’d meet another actor who’s in similar circumstances as me that is married. I mean, no offence to my female readers out there, but its really, really very difficult for us to find someone who understands our passion and supports our dream. I told Fish this and he agreed. He said he feels very blessed to be married to her; machiam like striking lottery. Heh. Maybe there’s hope for me after all. *grin*

Now that I know Fish better, I don’t feel so bad about losing the role to him. Cuz like me, he also lamented over being typecast and how he tried to get out of it by being a policeman in True Files. Lol. That is like so deja vu man. And when I find out that he is also without representation, I felt even happier.

Because if anything, I’d rather lose to acting cred than get sidelined just because some agency strongarmed the production company. Hmmrph.

While we were waiting on the set, an intern on the verge of joining NTU was asking if he should even consider being in this line. While he got the standard answers like passion, drive and purpose, he asked what happened if the passion dies?

If the passion dies, you move on, my young Padawan. Would it be too late to move on? It might be, then again it might not, but you won’t know until you’ve tried. Seeing that he was not quite satisfied with the answers he was given by the rest, I told him, “It all boils down to this; No Regret. If you don’t do this now, will you regret later?”

Food for thought eh? I asked myself the same question too while contemplating choosing this path. And I decided, ah what the fark, I don’t wanna regret when I’m fifty and go lamenting if only I had tried…

And so here I am now.